Sorry For Everything

Hey there , assalammualaikum . I MISS YOU and I'M SORRY . I really am :( You know that I love you , but why do you do this to me ? Jealous ? Yes , I AM . That shows how much I love you and how scared I am to lose you but you just don't care . Don't you ? We got into a fight last few days but everything went back to normal after you said those sweet words to me . Am I stupid for trusting you ? Tell me boy . You just don't know how hurt am I trying to fake a smile and be happy in front of you when the fact is , it's killing me inside . You know what hurts ? When I'm talking to you and you were busy texting some other girls . You ignored me . Please , I'm begging you , stop hurting me . Yes , memang I selalu cakap " it's okay " but don't you understand ape I maksudkan tu ? I'm lack of ways . I don't know what should I do anymore . I tengok you're happy with someone now , the way you texted her shows that you're happy being with her rather than me . So , I've made up my mind to leave you to her and I'll move on with the boy yang I cakap tu . And so yeah , here I am now being somebody's girlfriend . He knows that I love you . And he's trying his best to make me love him like how I love you . But I'm stuck in the middle . Yes , I admit it's my mistake sebab buat keputusan melulu . I tak fikir panjang . I buat keputusan dalam keadaan yang sangat tak stable . Dalam keadaan yang sangat serabut . But where were you when I needed you the most ? Where ? You don't even bother to explain it to me . You don't even care . Bile I fikir balik , I'm on the wrong path . I can't continue my relationship with that boy , so I decided to end everything and I'm really glad he understands me . He's a really nice guy . He told me not to give up if I really love you . He even asked me to tell you everything about my feelings . But I can't . I just can't . For now on , I need some space for myself . I just wanna be alone . Don't worry , I takkan kacau your life with your new girl . I won't disturb you anymore . All I want now is peace . You take care my dear boy . I'll always pray for your happiness . Assalammualaikum :)